This has been a tiring week! I couldn't wait to sleep in today (although 9:30 was as late as I could sleep, I usually get up at 6:30). After meeting my month goal last Friday I stayed in the same place with weight (and even went up half a pound one day) for six days! But in the last two days my weight has come down a pound and a half! I've been sticking with my same calorie range (about 1000 to 1150 this week) so I'm not sure what accounts for the six day stand-still, except I will admit I ate higher fat foods on some of those days, though I counted them. If I were doing Weight Watchers new program my points would have been higher so maybe there's something to that. But I'm trying to keep it in balance, and I'm really pleased with the last two days. I'm trying to figure out if my clothes feel different. I think my jeans are bit more comfortable on me. They are stretch jeans anyway, but thinking back I was really busting out of them a couple of months ago. It seems like there are more wrinkles in them when I'm wearing them now. Pretty much all the pants I wear are stretchy, so it's a bit hard to tell. But those twelve and a half pounds have definitely come off from somewhere.
A friend of mine from Taiwan told me yesterday that she thinks my face looks slimmer. If she said it she definitely believes it, because she usually tells me I look tired, awful etc. if that's what she thinks. She's extremely blunt and even tactless in this sense by American standards. I finally asked her why she's so insulting sometimes and she told me it's a cultural thing - that she's my friend and she will call it like she sees it. So her observation about my face I will believe, though I can't see it myself.
It does make me realize how much extra weight I've been carrying around if I can lose twelve and a half pounds and not really detect much of a difference. I am soooo looking forward to the point where my weight loss becomes really noticeable. I'm also looking forward to wearing new clothes! As my weight increased, there were fewer and fewer things I could wear, and by a year ago I was pretty much down to a few pairs of pants/jeans and some large blouses. I had bought these because my older clothes were too small, but I haven't wanted to go shopping for a long time for two reasons: 1. I hate shopping, especially when I'm at my highest weight (few things fit right and those florescent lights don't help!) and 2. I really didn't want to buy any more "fat" clothes, because it felt like giving in.
A friend of mine is moving overseas and gave me a bunch of lovely colorful clothes last week. Sundresses, skirts, shirts, scarves. She's a few inches taller than me and not skinny but definitely lighter. As long as my progress keeps going, there's a good chance I could wear most of it this summer. It will be nice to wear more feminine flowing garments again. As I got heavier the "uniform" of jeans/slacks and blouses became more drab and straight-cut, to help hide my extra weight. I didn't want to wear dresses and skirts that just gave me the moo moo look.
So, right now it's all about consistency and patience. I keep reminding myself it does work. The numbers so far are real, even if I don't notice that much in the mirror yet. I didn't gain this weight in one month and it will take a while to get it off, but it's happening!
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